||As I was growing up my step-father used to watch a lot of porn and I was very scared of it because I felt it was bad. My heart would race and I would want him to stop waching it. He usually tried to keep it away from me but he was not very careful. I became curious and somewhat obssesed with it. He sexually harrased me when I was like 13 years old. I still feel scared of sex but somehow I feel a great relief when I do see it. I get excited but feel very guilty. I WANT IT TO STOP!! I have now had 3 sexual partners and I can honestly say that I did not start having sex for the pleasure but for the comfort of knowing that someone loved me. Now I have a boyfriend who is a great person but I am greatly tempted to keep on having sex with him. I don't want to anymore!! I feel addicted and relaxed from stress when I do it, but I am really trying to stop!! I stop for like 6 months then I fall again. I really love God so much and I know he loves me but somehow I can't seem to get past this. I don't want to leave my BF because he really is awsome but also has problems with abstaining like me. I really feel turned off by him when this happens because I feel he does not value my morals and values, but then again perhaps I don't either because I do the same thing. He is a Catholic, but he is not very faithful. Can someone help me find a way to solve this problem? I don't want to have sex anymore, and I want to keep my boyfriend.